Wednesday, January 26, 2022

News: 26 January 2022

Over the last month, I wanted to get work done on the Bible project and MSLN book. But some things came up and I found it hard to get into a good workflow for those projects. I did do some good work for the MSLN book one day.

I did get some thinking done about the Bible project. I realized there was a significant "bug" in my process so far (which I had left off at the beginning of Exodus). I missed a couple of important dimensions to the question of how to ask who God is, the question I've been pursuing in the first pass of the Bible project. So now I realize I need to think of some way to make sure I have a good set of sensitivities before going forward. I don't want to get to the end of Revelation and realize "I should have been looking for X the whole time." It might happen but I want to do what I can to prevent it.

I thought about trying to come up with a philosophical account of what goes into who a person is. That's not an easy task, at least it doesn't seem so at first. Another approach is to go through Genesis and try really hard to think of different dimensions to who God is as I go through it. Then take a break. Then go back and do it again. Until I'm not getting anything new. Perhaps I will pursue a mixture of the two approaches.

Unrelatedly, I also thought of a way to improve my overall project (a better plan of action for the Bible project).

It's tricky managing this project because I don't think there's a formula for how to work. Should I push ahead? If I were really good at that, I might miss some of these improvements in "how" I do things. (I might get so far in I can't change to accommodate them.) I might excel at "that" I do them but have a worse final product. But if I don't ever push ahead and get things done, no final product will result.

Some of the time this last month I was working on computer maintenance. It's an interesting perspective to compare ideas to computer programs. Also, thinking about analogies between computer security and "mental security" (an analog of "mental health" or "mental strength"). I was struck by how when I looked in my virtual private server's logs, there were a lot of login attempts by bots that were just trying to see what would work (guessing passwords randomly). (This is typical for VPSes.) By analogy, things try to gain access to your mind and control you, like advertisements or attacks from the spiritual world. They are low-level and pervasive like the bots. And there's something cheap and dumb about them, like bots guessing passwords randomly -- "seeing whatever works".

Tuesday, January 18, 2022

Is God Lonely?; Could God be Mentally Ill?

Epistemic status: In the back of my head I think I may see things differently somewhat as I work on my Bible commentary. But I think this is my default perspective from natural theology.

Is God lonely, or is he socially fulfilled? MSL (as I currently understand it) requires that there be at least two persons who make up Legitimacy, and the Bible (in the orthodox view) says that God consists of three persons.

Someone I knew made a claim somewhat like this: God the Father enjoys community with the other two members of the Trinity.

I am not sure that person even believed in the Trinity and if not perhaps was trying to make me think of God in such a way that I would live a more conventionally healthy life. It's interesting that our concepts of God affect our concepts of what kinds of life are acceptable and vice versa. Maybe the person I knew believed that there's nothing to really know about God, so we should pragmatically shape our concept of him to serve our purposes, to deal with the obvious and undeniable problems caused by pain.

But if there's a fact of the matter about God, what is it? It makes sense that the Father, Son, and Spirit enjoy a strong bond with each other, and other than times like Gethsemane, which I would assume are rare, we don't see any temptation to discord between them. They have a complete kinship (on the level of who they are) by their faithfulness to being Legitimacy, and other than during Jesus' life on earth, they may have had no experience of parting or lack of communication.

But they are probably not emotionally satisfied on a social level, because of the billions of people who misunderstand them or even reject them. If you think of God as power, wisdom, and permanence, then God is plenitude. But God's power is thwarted by a single feeble human who chooses not to trust him. If you think of God as love, he is poor, because love impoverishes itself. God is disestablished by us and will only be established (really himself) when the beings who exist are fully in tune with him. By being our father (and not some professional deity) while we are strangers to him, he values us personally in a way that we do not reciprocate. And to love someone who does not love you in kind is a lonely thing to do.

One way to think of God is that he (or they) are vast, greater than all the stars we think are in the universe. But another way is to think that God is miniscule, only three beings in a vast sea of living people (and other spirits), and who knows how many dead people waiting to be resurrected.

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Does this mean that God suffers from poor mental health, in some sense? It sounds like it. But maybe that is what is required of love.

God has to manage to do his work anyway. We tend to think that we have to shut off our emotional understanding of reality so that we can get the work done that will make things better. This grown-up way of doing things makes it so that we no longer see the world as vividly, neither the rightness nor the wrongness of it.

If we take this to its logical conclusion, nothing matters, and then getting work done (the thing that was our reason for shutting off emotions) is pointless. We might think that God is a professional and sets his feelings aside to get the job done of serving us. But if he is too professional, maybe he will feel like there is no point to anything and blink us out of existence. We might not mind that, if we too have shut off our emotions to the point that we feel like our own existence doesn't matter. But we might not like it if he gradually lost a sense of meaning, and withdrew from the world on the personal level long before he stopped making the psychological and physical underpinnings of it work. A world that gradually gets more and more neglected by God is one that will get more and more messed up, more and more a hell. So we would want it to be the case that God is bound to an emotional truth, some set of emotional responses following from the meaning of things. God's feelings would enable him to keep us out of hell.

This truth, or these truths, may be inconvenient. They are part of Legitimacy, which is God and who he is. Legitimacy, that things should be and the way that they should be, determines how a person should respond to whatever the state of reality is. God has to respond to the truth even if it's not pragmatic. Instead, he has to feel the feelings that are true and still function. God's job is a hard job, harder than yours or mine.

(Also as a consequence of everything being experience and thus all metaphysical contact being that of consciousness experiencing another consciousness, God feels our pain exactly as we do and thus can't rest if we can't rest.)

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Is loneliness really mental illness? Even intense loneliness? What exactly is "mental illness"? Thinking it over a bit, I wasn't sure I could easily draw the line between mental illness and what is not mental illness. But I thought "Why do we care about mental illness?" Generally we care about mental illness if it's something that makes it so that we are not in touch with reality, or so that we harm ourselves or others. Is loneliness self-harm? There is harm in negative feelings (subjective). Sometimes, but not necessarily to the point that we die, harm others, or fail to perform whatever good that we ought to for them (more objective). (The difference between subjective and objective harm.)

Being lonely might make us more in touch with reality. Both in the sense that when we are alone, we realize that we are alone most truly by being lonely, and because when we seek to be really in touch with reality, it might make us be alone. As a consequence of really being excellent at minimizing harm in the world overall, it may make you different from most other personal beings and thus alone on that level. So if we are trying to minimize "harm-and-being-out-of-touch-with-reality" (H + !R), we might need to sometimes become more lonely. Minimizing mental illness in a conventional sense might cause us to have more (H + !R), because "mental illness" as culturally defined may not consider the bigger picture of what reality could be. (Sometimes, of course, reducing (as opposed to minimizing) mental illness in a conventional sense reduces (H + !R).)

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We want it to be the case that God's (H + !R) does not get so high that he is untrustworthy, unable to fulfill the role of "good God" for all of us. Clearly, God is untrustworthy at least locally by allowing evil to happen (hence the problem of evil). However, this is bearable if we believe that there was a time before evil and a time after it is gone forever. We would like it to be the case that God is unshakeably good-willed and ultimately competent.

In the MSLN theodicy, it is assumed that God permits evil as a consequence of his holiness. It is because he is unable to will evil that he needs evil beings to will it for him in order for us to be tempted (a necessary part of us having a choice whether to love him or not), and then those evil beings have leverage to make the world worse than it needs to be. God is powerful enough to end any reality (any evil), but it turns out that for the best good outcome to happen (for us to really love him), he must permit the world to have evil in it (to end evil would mean he would have to end us). From that angle, God is behaving in a maximally trustworthy manner, because he is doing the best that can be done for our spiritual well-being. (But it is understandable if not all people can see that all the time, given what happens to them.) Still, what is most trustworthy is some day when evil is gone. God is not on the side of evil and can't stand it forever, so it will be gone, and hopefully each reader of this post will be on God's side when that day comes, rather than identifying with evil in any way.

MSLN theodicy (if it's true) gives us a reason to be certain that God's character is completely trustworthy and that evil exists for an ultimately good reason, and that in terms of "raw power" (what omnipotence may be talking about, I think) God is powerful enough to get his will done, and thus that untrustworthiness is only temporary. But another solution to the problem of evil could conceivably be that God is mentally ill, and inconsistently opposes and supports evil, for reasons that may always be inscrutable to us.

So now I would want to rule out the possibility that God could be mentally ill in a way that threatens his ultimate trustworthiness. I will attempt to do so using (H + !R) as a measure of trustworthiness.

(H + !R) = "harms self or others, is not in touch with reality". If God wills harm for others, it might be because it's the least harmful thing to do in the end ("teaching a lesson"), but if he's not into harm-minimization, he's not legitimate and not God. There are two ways to show this, the "abstract" way, and the "personal" way. The "abstract" way is that harm is a class of damaging something (by definition) which is a diminution of that thing's value on some level -- something which keeps it from its most-valuable state. Legitimacy (value itself) would have to be in favor of whatever was valuable, and thus for each thing to be its most valuable (and thus least-harmed), whenever possible.

The "personal" way is to look at "axizeiology" and consider how we as personal beings think of legitimacy, and especially maximal legitimacy (that which can't be argued against). It is as though we have instilled in us an instinct for recognizing legitimacy, which is helpful in identifying what legitimacy ought to be. We know in this personal way that beings that are maximally legitimate love, and choose the maximally competent course of action. To whatever extent that legitimacy is mentally ill, it still chooses maximally competent courses of action.

What looks like mental illness can be to be two or more wills in one body (or for a body to be possessed by a bad will), or to have a bad will which sometimes masquerades as a good will. In order for legitimacy to love, all of its wills must love (legitimacy can comprise multiple persons). There is a harmony in legitimacy. So what ought to be legitimate is a person (or a set of persons) who are not inclined to harm, and who choose the maximally competent path to avoid harm. Whatever could be called mentally ill in them must be something that doesn't impinge on that. Loneliness or other pains may be psychologically costly (subjectively harm), but they do not prevent God from choosing the maximally competent course of action. He (they, given that God is both a community and its chief member) always does the right thing given the constraints he works with. And to really love sometimes requires suffering, even intense suffering.

Is God in touch with reality? Legitimacy must metaphysically connect with all things it legitimates and thus has all data that exists at its disposal (it is conscious of what it connects to). Legitimacy connects to everything that exists. Does it sufficiently generate enough thoughts to understand reality in depth? (Like generating enough theories to understand given data.) In order to validate something, you have to know how it relates to everything else. Axizeiologically, Legitimacy must understand how everything relates to everything else as part of being competent. So God, as Legitimacy, must be completely in touch with reality, both by possessing knowledge of all that is and by coming to as deep an understanding of it as possible.

In that case, we have reason to think that God passes the (H + !R) test for trustworthiness, and so to whatever extent God is mentally ill, it does not render him untrustworthy. His mental illness is not a form which renders him incoherent internally, so he is of one unified will which loves.

Subjective vs. Objective Harm

Epistemic status: provisional.

See also Who You Are vs. What You Are.

Subjective harm is experiential and damages the state you are in, and is inherently temporary, while objective harm damages who or what you are, and is inherently permanent unless remedied.

What defines a person? In a weak sense, we are all that we experience. Everything that you experience is part of your experience body. In the strongest sense, we are who we are. We have preferences, and we choose to change them. But there may be a grey area in between, between "who" and "experience body". "What" you are (perhaps your physical strengths, or social roles, or something like that) is not exactly just the state you are in, nor your character.

Was Jesus harmed on the cross? Yes, his experience body was harmed. No, his character was unharmed. Was he harmed in the sense of "what" in any way? His physical body was harmed. A body can be made out of experience, but there may be another dimension. Was it harmed permanently? If experience is inherently temporary, then what is permanent about a person is how God sees them. He's the one who recreates our experience bodies whenever we exit unconsciousness. So in his eyes, was there any change in what Jesus was? No. "What" Jesus was was stored in God's mind and will and could be trivially restored into an experience body of Jesus' own (and was, when Jesus was resurrected). Jesus was only harmed subjectively, but not objectively.

But when Jesus appeared to his disciples after his resurrection, his body had wounds. So maybe "what" he was was damaged in God's eyes by the resurrection? I could ask, which would Legitimacy prefer, the Jesus who had been faithful and died (confirming the validity of Legitimacy by Jesus, a member of Legitimacy, being willing to bear the burden of human death), or the Jesus who hadn't done that? Real harm is destruction of true value, and God is the judge of that.

Maybe the body that is more "true" (if not more "beautiful") is Jesus' wounded body and Legitimacy prefers truth over beauty (or what we conventionally think of as beauty). In the vision of Revelation, Jesus is both perfect- and powerful-looking (arguably) with (Rev. 1:14-15) "His head and his hair were white as white wool, like snow. His eyes were like a flame of fire. His feet were like burnished brass, as if it had been refined in a furnace. His voice was like the voice of many waters." It doesn't say there either way whether he had wounds. The vision later (5:6) shows a lamb who appeared to be slain, which from the text I would assume is Jesus. I imagine a lamb with blood on its neck. My interpretation is that at the end of time Jesus will be both in some sense perfect (or impressive in the conventional sense, which we call "perfection" and which we apply to beauty and power) and in some sense wounded.

Whatever a person is supposed to be according to Legitimacy, they will be, unless through their decisions ("who" they are), they limit God (Legitimacy). Even the damage done to "what" you are, done by other people, can be restored, because God can separate any two people so that they don't interact with each other, and then he can restore the damaged one. But the damage done to "who" you are, can only be remedied by you, and sometimes damaged relationships and thus social roles won't come back, if one or both of the people involved are no longer "who" they used to be.

Monday, January 17, 2022

Who You Are vs. What You Are

Epistemic status: provisional.

What is the difference between "who" you are and "what" you are? Who you are is your true preferences and identity and the expression of these through you. Ultimately you choose to be who you are. Maybe you start life with some innate preferences, and are given some identities by your parents or other older people. But by the end of your life (perhaps this process isn't finished until the end of the Millennium) you have thought through who you are a fair amount, have chosen new preferences and identities or chose the given ones for yourself, and have implicitly affirmed whatever innate preferences or early-given identities you didn't choose. Or you have done your best to reject them as far as you are able, this being your rejection of them.

God is omnipotent, two exceptions being the choices that other personal beings make to assert themselves (he can override their choices in the moment, but not the choices that express who they really are), and that he cannot do what is wrong. "What" a person is largely falls in the domain of God's omnipotence. That they have bodies, physical strengths, emotional tendencies, and so on is under his control. Except the choices that they make as themselves (as expressions of "who" they are) can sometimes override this.

God has partial control or influence over the "what" of being in a given social role. Social relationships could be completely engineered by God, but if they are to express the "who" of the people involved, that "who" limits God's power. God can orchestrate real social relationships (for instance, put people in positions to interact with each other, or override their unwise attempts to flee from each other) but not force them.

The bedrock of reality is, who personal beings are, and what they are emerges in how they relate to each other. God creates what a person is, but people modify the what of each other and are to some extent like creators as well.

Saturday, January 1, 2022

2021 to 2022

Review of 2021:

In the first half of 2021, I finished the X-Risk and the The Feeling of Value book reviews and EA population ethics reading list that I mentioned at the beginning of last year. I also wrote a review of Warranted Christian Belief.

I wrote other blog posts through June. Toward the end of June, I became more active on Twitter. I found the "Christian humanist" online scene (people into high church conservatism concerned with the relationship between Christianity and politics, and also human nature). I responded to a vocal member of the scene with Establishedness and Loving God, in September. Then in October and November, I transitioned toward non-blog writing projects. I had begun writing a book on "the cross" in the summer, and in the fall added two other projects: a more organized and developed explanation of MSLN and a Bible commentary. I worked on them in December.

Comparison of expectations with reality

My predictions last year were conservative, and came true. (I finished the reviews, did start reading and reviewing Principles of Human Knowledge by Berkeley, and started one more EA reading list.) I did develop MSLN more.

In terms of things that are retrospectively surprising, the most notable is finding the Christian humanists and finding myself writing a book-length blog post in response to them. I have had thoughts relating to politics in the past, but didn't see it as a core part of what I would write about. At this point, I realize that beyond Establishedness and Loving God, I may not be qualified to say much more in that space, so that might be the high-water mark of my writing on politics. However, part of me thinks that the subject is important, and that explaining how MSLN relates to policymaking and governance is actually very important in the long run. If AGI doesn't kill us all, politics may remain or grow more important in the future, because human decision-making could constrain how the AGI behaves (it having been trained to be our servant, or it respecting our values so much that it respects our value of us having agency as decision-makers). However, as important as I think social and political theory from an MSLN perspective is, I may or may not be the person to do that writing.

Preview of 2022:

The most obvious thing to predict, which I see ahead, is that I will continue to work on my writing projects (the cross book, MSLN book, and Bible commentary). I find myself writing less for the blog in the last few months and expect that will continue, although I may still write some posts, if it seems necessary to put a particular idea out there.

I don't feel as interested in the Christian humanists and don't see myself interacting with them much (unless perhaps I get a reply to Establishedness and Loving God). In December I made some contact with an EACH member (Christian effective altruism group) and think that I might try to interact with them some in 2022.

The Bible commentary is a long project which I think will be no more than 25% done by this time next year (at a most optimistic realistically possible estimate). I might have the MSLN book done by this time next year. (Or as done as I can make it without feedback. Given the kind of writing it is, it might need a lot of work once I get feedback.) I may not work on the cross book too much this coming year (mainly gathering sources).